Transitions, Transformations and a Little Photography
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Play
Well I feel like I’ve been pretty serious lately with my posts and now that the grey fog has lifted (see this post if you missed it) it’s good to have more uplifting fun topics to talk about. I’ve been doing a deep dive into the book Play by Stuart Brown and it seems to be very timely as I’m in the middle of a great break which includes time with an old friend, a writing retreat and time with a photography friend - there is a lot of play involved in this trip with very little seriousness at all! Who doesn’t love a good rainy November in Wales?
I find that I can get caught up in a very serious cycle where my sense of humour seems to have gone for a walkabout. The best thing for me to do at these times is take a break and find something to have a good belly laugh about then start to focus on having fun - in other words a good session of play does the trick.
Printing Images
I have been making images for about 10 years now and while I feel like I’ve progressed in terms of technique, editing ability and creative expression, there is one area that I have been hesitant and even resistant to pursuing in any significant way and that is printing my work.
Editing images for use on a computer screen or social media or a blog is much different than editing them to be printed. For starters I tend to use lower resolution images for my blog and social media as the file sizes are smaller. Also, images viewed on a screen are backlit and they appear brighter and a bit more saturated than when they are printed. As a result there are different editing steps used for printing to bridge some of these differences.
All About The Light
I have been photographing for a few years now (more than 10) and I am feeling a shift in my photography - I love how I find myself in one of two states - either in flow and feeling excited and inspired by my photography efforts, or in some state of disquiet, dissatisfaction or generally uninspired. I seem to gravitate to these two states which seems very odd, but true.
I will trundle along in a state of disquiet or lacking inspiration when suddenly it is like a light bulb turning on and I feel myself slip into flow (I wrote about flow here). What I don’t always recognize is that there is a process that I go through to enter flow and part of that is getting focused on the present moment and letting all expectations and criticisms fade into the background. I can’t force this to happen, but when I let go and slide into it - magic!
In a Funk
This one has been difficult to write and I’ve edited multiple times.
It’s been a tough summer. There! I’ve admitted it and committed it to writing - a big deal for me. I generally try to be optimistic and look for the bright side of things (yes, Life of Brian is a favourite movie - think of the closing credits song - Always Look on the Bright Side of Life), but to be honest right now that’s not working, so I’m going to embrace the fuzzy and see if that helps.
I think historically I’ve been the optimist seeker out of fear - there is a history of depression in my family and I have always felt that giving in to those feelings of being down, fuzzy or grey will lead to a downward spiral of depression and be much harder to dig myself out of. Fear has been a big motivator in my life - it allows me to spend time in the future and the past without having to really experience the here and now
The Sage Inner Voice
There are times when I feel like it’s getting a bit crowded inside my head - yes I’m one of those people who can really get stuck in my head and then the different stories start to spin and all those voices take on a different perspective of the story and wow it can get busy and noisy in there. What is often not as easy to do is to slow down the hubbub and focus on that small quiet voice - the one that is not loud and overbearing, but persistent nonetheless. I like that little voice - it is often the one that speaks common sense or at least asks questions that prompt me to re-examine thoughts that I felt were etched in stone facts.
I’m not sure when I started being aware of that little voice inside or even when I stopped giving it equal air time, but as I’ve grown older that voice has become more and more important to me.
Coming Out Of The Shadows
A few years ago I joined an online photography community ( A Year With My Camera) and I found such inspiration and camaraderie among the members. During that time I stumbled across the concept of liminal spaces (defined as a place or state of transition - the “in-between” moments where you are no longer where you were, but not yet where you are going). This concept intrigued me and I started to see liminal spaces all over the place - which led me to photographing them to try and capture that feeling of transition. I wrote about it in this blog post.
Little did I know at the time that this rabbit hole was going to lead me to all sorts of self discoveries that changed the way I view myself and my world. I love the mystery of liminal spaces - the not knowing where they lead or where I will end up.
Backyard Safari
I have been working through a 52 week creative photography course which has helped me to develop/hone some new creative concepts and stay engaged and inspired throughout the year. Week 46 of 52 was about storytelling and featured the prompt Backyard Safari. I liked the idea of this prompt as it encouraged me to view my backyard in a different manner - with fresh eyes - curious to showcase what I see - trying to present it in a different perspective.
One of the things I liked best about this prompt is that it encouraged me to stay close to home and not feel that I needed to venture to some new exotic place in order to find something photo-worthy.
Editing An Image
I thought that I’d take a blog to go through some editing that I did with my Zambia images as I spent some time with Michael and learned a few new tricks. He also helped me to remind myself not to be so lazy and short cut on editing - sometimes I’m not the keenest editor, but it can make such a difference.
I’ll start by saying that if you shoot raw format images (asI do) - you will have to edit your images as they come out of the camera rather flat looking. This is on purpose as the camera has not applied any editing to the image - all the information is preserved and it’s up to the photographer to edit the image. Jpeg images on the other hand have computer applied edits to them and are often quite good - unless you’re working on a more dramatic edit.
Rituals - Why They Can be so Important
A ritual is defined as a structured or repeated sequence of acts with a formal component to them. They can be seen as transitions or rites of passage such as weddings, funerals or graduations. Participating in rituals can be very grounding or help reduce anxiety, or even shift internal focus or perceptions. They can also form an important component of social bonding as people who share rituals have a common point of reference.
We often create personal or informal rituals such as morning coffee to start our workdays, or clearing email inboxes, or brushing teeth and relaxing in preparation for bedtime.
Being Present, What and How We See
I feel like this term gets thrown around a lot these days and in some ways it is losing its impact and meaning for me from overuse or casual use. A google definition of being fully present states that your mind, body and emotions are completely engaged in the present moment, but what does that mean exactly? To me it means that I’m not allowing distractions to take over the moment - I’m aware enough to know when my mind starts to wander and I can effectively bring myself back to the moment. I think for me that is the distinction - when I hear some people talk about being fully present, I get a sense that they are implying that you can totally block out everything but the present moment and I don’t think that as humans we’re wired to do that - at least I’m certainly not.
Finding Creative Inspiration
Well there’s a loaded question! Do I go after what is inspiring or what is creativity? Actually, I attended a photography talk by David DuChemin at the new Calgary Library in the east village downtown December 2024. It’s an amazing building with interesting architecture and design elements. Spending time there made me itchy to grab my camera and explore the lines and curves. Maybe that alone is inspiration - something that compels me to take action and get out of my head and get creative.
I’ve long been a fan of David DuChemin’s photography and writing - he has a number of photography books which often feel more like books on life and the creative process than strictly photography - so they are applicable to any creative pursuit.
First Impressions of Zambia
Well we’ve survived our 20+ hour flights to South Africa and we spent some time with the Wild Eye team. This is the company that we’ve used for our safari tours and I cannot speak too highly of them and their support in the planning and booking process. They take care of all of the details that make for an enjoyable and smooth trip, plus we have the added peace of mind knowing that we have support should we need it in case anything doesn’t go to plan (I’ve travelled to Iceland and Kory and I have visited Kenya and now Zambia with Wild Eye).
It was lovely to meet Tanya, Caitlin and Judy - just a few members of the logistics team who have helped us with booking trips. Being able to put faces to names when all communications have been via email or WhatsApp messages really helps.
Bluebird Season
This is the busy time of year for the bluebirds and for monitoring their activity - exciting times too. As I’ve mentioned before the bluebirds return from their winter homes in early to mid March and they start building nests in earnest by the beginning of May. Once the nest is built and shaped to a perfect cup the female loses the feathers on her abdomen - called a brood patch - which enables her to transfer maximum body heat to the eggs after she lays them.
Once the nest is finished she starts laying eggs - one a day for 5 - 7 days and two weeks after the last one is laid they start to hatch all on the same day! This is when the real work begins - constant feeding for both the male and the female while the little ones form feathers and grow big enough to fledge from the nest some 18-21 days after hatching. What a an amazing cycle to be able to witness and collect data from.
How to Tell a Good Story With My Life
I know that is an odd way to start this post, but in effect that is how the idea for this whole post started. Kory and I have been working on getting out of our comfort zone a bit more and just getting out more which includes actually coming up with date night or date day ideas. Full disclosure - he excels at this so much better than I do (for example the puppet making workshop was his idea). When he suggested that we attend a workshop titled (How to Tell a Good Story With Your Life) we thought it was about writing and that it would be a cool thing to attend on a Saturday morning.
Boy were we wrong about the topic, but I digress. We showed up at the venue where there were about 8 or 9 other people (Kory had gone to a workshop put on by the facilitator (Val) previously and enjoyed it - a setting your intentions for the New Year sort of thing).
Focus - Attention and Savouring Life
How many times have we heard this phrase as we were growing up - attending a boring event or classes at school. I’ve just finished reading a book titled Rapt by Winnifred Gallagher and I must say that it has been very impactful and not really what I expected. That’s a great combination in my mind and it makes it easy to recommend this book for those interested in attention or living a more focused life.
Early in the book is a quote by Ellen Langer who says that “the term mindfulness wouldn’t be necessary if most people didn’t have such an impoverished, static understanding of what ‘paying attention means’.” Let me start off by saying that I am rather envious of Langer’s ability to put together words and the way she turns a phrase - it tickles my brain.
Bluebird Time of Year Again
I am always amazed at how quickly the new mountain bluebird monitoring season comes around, but I anticipate it with enthusiasm and curiosity about what I will observe and learn this year. This is the 5th year that I will be monitoring these wonderful birds with CANMS (Calgary Area Nestbox Monitoring Society). I really appreciate being part of this network of bird enthusiasts who support education, networking, information and data collection around the monitoring activities. I must say out of the gate that there is a workshop being held May 23, 2026 at the Leighton Art Centre outside of Calgary. I attended this session last year and it is a great way for people to learn about the bluebird monitoring process and especially for children and young teens to increase their knowledge of birds and conservation. It is also a great place for anyone interested in taking on a Nestbox monitoring run to learn what is involved. Information for registration is supplied on the link on the website.
Values, Comfort Zones and Growth
I have sat down to write this blog post a number of times and I keep getting stuck - as usual this caused me to pause and reflect on the why. It wasn’t that I didn’t understand what values are - they are the rules or guideposts that we use to define the boundaries of our lives and how we want to live our life - in essence they form our identity. When we’re living authentically within those guideposts there is a feeling of congruity to our lives - a sense of meaning and purpose with an everything is right in my world kind of feeling.
It also wasn’t that I didn’t know what my core values are - I’ve spent time working through this and figuring out what is important to me and how I want to show up in my life, no, it seems to me that there was a disruption - a discordant feeling about what I say are my core values and how I was living my life.
Puppet Making (Part 2)
The second Saturday arrived all fresh and full of creative potential and we pulled up to the studio excited to see how the face moulds turned out. Our first job was to carefully extract the polymer face mould from the plaster form using various tools and gently prying away from the edges - the eyes and nose portion was the toughest to remove as we didn’t want to pull too hard and rip or tear the polymer which was still quite soft and malleable.
Slowly but surely we extracted the faces and excited exclamations could be heard from each of us - we were thrilled with how the faces had come out - the details and textures were captured so well. You’d think we were done with the level of satisfaction expressed by everyone.
Puppet Making (Part 1)
It’s funny how interconnected things can be - like my husband finding a puppet making studio that gives classes and is affiliated with the father of a guitar friend of his. Add to this him getting the notion that this would be a fun thing for us to do with a couple of our friends - none of whom are into puppet making, but they were still up for it as it sounded fun and creative. Those are the kinds of friends who are important to have in your life - people who are up for something off the wall and new just to be able to hang out and have some fun together.
Now if you’ll recall I’ve done a few posts about not feeling very creative (I wrote about it here) and I historically have felt all sorts of resistance inside myself when I think about doing something new -
Rising Up
I’m not sure that I was as intentional about starting this year off differently than I could or should have been, but regardless - I found myself wrapping up 2025 with some feelings of unrest and vague distraction. I also found myself spending more time online than I like and less time getting outside pursuing my passion of photography and just being in nature.
I also found myself falling into some habits that I know are not productive or good for my mental health - things such as comparing my images and progress with others - that’s a rabbit hole that never leads to a good place. Wondering what my photography is about and trying to come up with some way of making it financially viable - ugh what better way to suck the joy out of something. Which led to second guessing and questioning the reasons that I get out with my camera at all - a definite start to a negative spiral.