This one has been difficult to write and I’ve edited multiple times.

It’s been a tough summer. There! I’ve admitted it and committed it to writing - a big deal for me. I generally try to be optimistic and look for the bright side of things (yes, Life of Brian is a favourite movie - think of the closing credits song - Always Look on the Bright Side of Life), but to be honest right now that’s not working, so I’m going to embrace the fuzzy and see if that helps.

I think historically I’ve been the optimist seeker out of fear - there is a history of depression in my family and I have always felt that giving in to those feelings of being down, fuzzy or grey will lead to a downward spiral of depression and be much harder to dig myself out of. Fear has been a big motivator in my life - it allows me to spend time in the future and the past without having to really experience the here and now